Job Interview response to HR…
Yesterday was an interesting flashback into my life 20 years ago. I have lived on the fringes of society for the past twenty years and to be honest, I am quite comfortable with fringe, nomadic, gypsy life. Thank you for being so kind – I know that I am pretty rough around the edges. I sometimes think I have been away too long.
To quote Merton,
“Only the man who has had to face despair is really convinced that he needs mercy. Those who do not want mercy never seek it. It is better to find God on the threshold of despair than to risk our lives in a complacency that has never felt the need of forgiveness. A life that is without problems may literally be more hopeless than one that always verges on despair.”
I have found that I can not live a life of quiet desperation. Society today places so much emphasis on material wealth and so much is derived from job, social standing, vehicle, address….I am who I am because of my last twenty years. I know that no one can understand why I am happy but I know I have to be me for my son Jake.
So, I am being honest with you…a factory job horrifies me because it is everything that I left behind. I am in no way judging anyone working a factory job but I know I could never work in that environment. I have led an exceptional life. Emerson speaks of Experience in his wonderful essay American Scholar – he defines man as… “An individual may live in either of two states. In one, the busy, “divided” or “degenerate” state, he does not “possess himself” but identifies with his occupation or a monotonous action; in the other, “right” state, he is elevated to “Man”, at one with all mankind.” While I have not achieved “one with all” I have a bank account of experience that is quite full and a material bank account that is empty.
Finally Merton –
“No matter how ruined man and his world may seem to be, and no matter how terrible man’s despair may become, as long as he continues to be a man his very humanity continues to tell him that life has a meaning.”
― Dr. Seuss – “Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is you-er than you. Shout aloud, I am glad to be what I am. Thank goodness I’m not a ham, or a clam, or a dusty old jar of gooseberry jam. I am what I am, what a great thing to be. If I say so myself, happy everyday to me!”
Jake outgrew our wonderful BornFree, well his toys outgrew it! We jumped and landed in a new job, (beef jerky-) new rig (awesome) and landed in Florida for a couple months.
The shows and people here in Florida are awesome – tons of live music, great food, and new friends.
The first sign I see – post election Texas! I always thought Cruz was a wimp…
Tough as Texas! Say no more…
Free rv camping with electric and water brought us to this wonderful town. Authentic Mexican food across the street and classic vehicles.
One of my favorite western cow towns, I look forward to our sojourn here yearly. From Cadillac Ranch to great food – Amarillo rocks.
We always paint our names on a caddy! Jake loves running around all the spray cans.
This year our booth at the civic center was a bit lean on product.
I had the craziest customer insult me this year. I’m selling wine slushy and she came up looking for a sample. Realizing she was sipping a wine slushy and loving it – she promptly informed me “you are going to hell”. I was a bit taken aback and asked her what religion she was – “INTERDENOMINATIONAL” her reply…I looked at her and said…oh ya cant make up your mind huh? She stalked off to insult the beard grooming guy because he was wearing a Trump tshirt.
I bought one cause that is funny! Yes, people were offended by his shirt.
Slow show but camped fully hooked up at an RV park – loved the sauna and whirlpool. I could get used to this life.
Indian Joe was a dearly loved man in Lodge Grass, Montana. He was adopted into the tribe many years ago and his first Powwow regalia was hand made by Twila Oldelk.
I remember the last time he sang and played this drum – his voice and the cadence of his drum resonate.
When it came time to have my son’s first drum made, I thought back to the Crow design on his last drum.
Jake has a rich native history including his great great great grandfather Curly (scout) Ashishishe (c. 1856–1923), known as Curly (or Curley), was a Crow scout in the United States Army during the Sioux Wars, best known for having been one of the few survivors on the United States side at the Battle of Little Bighorn.Curly (scout) Ashishishe (c. 1856–1923), known as Curly (or Curley), was a Crow scout in the United States Army during the Sioux Wars, best known for having been one of the few survivors on the United States side at the Battle of Little Bighorn. He is also related to Plainbull the close friend of Plenty Coups.
Jake’s first music memory is Carlos Santana Maria Maria played just after he was born. While I played Northern Cree In Our Drum We Trust – he cried.
Today he sang and played his drum for the first time! How appropriate since we are bound for War Eagle our favorite show of the year.
Our left and right media know so little about real people – real America. Coming out of Montgomery, Alabama last night – I was still contemplating the city seal.
It seemed to define oxymoronic- I asked my customers both black, white, liberal and conservative to explain it. Some stated it was covertly racist and some explained it was “how far we have come as a city”. This in a state that bans interracial marriage. This is still the “old south”. I was loved, hugged and greeted with “brother” (or maybe it was my wine slushies) by both races. From the black guy selling guys underwear at a a women’s event – (I bought five pair) – to the kind white lady selling pearl broaches and necklaces – the city was full of kindness and love.
Rolling out of Bikes, Blues, and BBQ’s, I reflected on the eclectic makeup of clean preppy bikers mixed with rough “real” ironbutts. The bikes were loud and the crowd was drinking filled with a conservative ethos.
The coffee guy and I joked about the “Christian Bikers”.
They did not tip the coffee guy ever! They were dressed like wannabe Hells Angel’s and I figured the two rival gangs would battle it out over freewill versus predestination.
But the bikes were loud and awesome and Jake just ran around saying “dat dat dat” so excited to be one of the bikers.
America is eclectic and great despite our differences.
Hot Springs, Arkansas was hot. This is the only show I have ever asked someone to leave my booth. A politician walked up spouting double talk. I politely listened as she extolled how we need to invest in education and elderly healthcare. I agreed and asked how she felt about my own concerns. Our military and the second amendment- she stated we needed to cut the military, cut military benefits, reign in the VA benefits and guns should be confiscated. I was polite – with an edge in my voice – when I asked her to please leave my booth. I did not argue, did not loot, pillage, or bash. But all my customers cheered and bought more slushy!
Rodney King said it best as he was being beaten by police so many years ago ” can we all get along?”
Yep, Rodney – we can!
“How do you like the people of Oklahoma?” Tough question since I’m schlocking wine slushies at the Oklahoma State Fair. They are awesome (and they are) – I reply. My patron replies – no they are alright but uptight.
12 hour shifts, no breaks, hardcore sales! All vendors look out for one another and I ask Jason my Tornado Storm Shelter neighbor to keep an eye while I go to the bathroom. Four minutes later I return to all hell breaking loose. The fair Nazi enforcers are at my booth writing me a ticket for booth abandonment! Jason (who shells out about $10k for his booth) says whoa…I was watching it…and talks her down to a mere warning. She wags her finger in my face and says you have been warned! I asked her if I needed to go to the principal’s office! They checked on me hourly for the next ten days…
That was the only negative we turned to a positive and it’s all good. A young African American woman approaches my booth with a baby emblazoned on her tshirt – big – is the only word (on her shirt not her). I lead off with ” it was all a dream” – she was shocked an old white guy new B.I.G.! Bought two slushies! Ching $$
My neighbor made my stay at the fair! Every morning he would present me with a cup of black loose leaf tea from Nepal his homeland. Each afternoon, green tea from Nepal. The humble two handed gift was so heart warming and full of love. Moving…
From the wonderful Guatemalan family to my other neighbor Stu Mayo (the kids used to tackle him on the playground and yell “hold the mayo”).
Stu (not Stewy – only his mother calls him that..my bad) cooked for everyone as he preached the gospel of nutrition through his $5000 pan sets – yes you read that right. Every night, he would ring the bell and for a dollar he would deliver great chicken stew! He asked for a donation of a buck but fed all whether they had money or not. I respect that even if his Sam and Ella jokes were lame.
Oklahoma State Fair – 129 hours of good people! I rode in with my stock each morning- legs burning – all good!!
On the road again – Arkansas- my favorite state…BIKES BLUES BARBECUE here we come.
The review online for Dripping Springs in Las Cruces New Mexico said – “primitive”. Hooked!
I love boondocking (no power, no water, no fee). Short stint on a one lane dirt road and bam setting up camp. I also love the fact that there is good singletrack for my fat bike. Surly Pugsley makes an awesome fatties fit fine – fat bike. I’m fat and getting back in shape with this generously forgiving bike is plain cool. Oh wait, I told Katrinda that I bought it to ride Jake around in his wagon. Well, dual purpose is best put your Surly to the test.
Pug is forgiving and while some bemoan the weight of 4″ tires and say it wallows…This bike is plush like a full suspension mountain bike.
High desert, 4864 on the altimeter! This is the nomad life I love. Just remember at 90 degrees it is a dry heat.
I climb for a mile over 1000 feet slogging through sand and RIP the trail back home to Jake waiting on the front carpet…good life….blessed and thankful.
Writing again, the raw struggle of text and photos with the ease of quick Facebook. After my nephew passed, I stopped writing. I stopped life. My last post was home in Montana and what a trip since. I decided to retire from life, retreat, rebuild…try to be Thoreau in my cabin. So many stories since that epic move.
I retreated from relationships binding grind. Well, a side from my most faithful companion- Chloe. The good Lord saw differently and blessed me with a wife and child.
Full Time is my new life on the road. Bornfree 24′ motorcoach, selling part time to maintain the life style.
My son Jake will be one year old in a few days. At a campground just days ago, an elderly man commented ” sure is a waste traveling with him this young – he will never remember a thing”. I could not disagree more!
These formative years define a child. Yes, our lifestyle as full time RV denizens is out of box. But, I know their is a purpose and direction in all.
What follows is our lives on the road:
Warning – do not try this at home!
Disclaimer: This is not the exciting stories of UFO. Skinwalker, and native tales
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A long strange trip it’s been! Spent my second night in my casita as Mike Weddle calls it! The peace of a home for the first time in my life.
I’m so very blessed here on the Crow Reservation to be surrounded by friends and family. Chloe and I spend time cruising the back roads and taking pictures – fishing and hunting – and working on horses to subsist. It is a simple life! I would not want it any other way! I have mornings for meditation and prayer.
While I have not seen TV or taken an actual shower in weeks (I figure it keeps the women away) – It is a different peace I have found.